End of Life

20121231-NDIP10014As I watch her lie in her big boy bed, I am cognizant she is mostly unaware of my presence while I pray, cry, or pace. How do you fight for the very life it is time to release?  

End of Life. It continues to roll across my mind…over and over and over it speaks to me. First it comes as a whisper and then it is louder than the voices of those around me. Most certainly, these three little words have a stronger significance when it has to do with you or a loved one.

End of life.

It is intense.

It is intimate.

It is final.

It is no respecter of persons as it comes to every single one of us. 

Sometimes it is sudden. Sometimes it is a process. Sometimes you are ready and sometimes you are not ready and truthfully even when “ready” are you ever really prepared? Sometimes you want it now as in today and then, sometimes you wish tomorrow would never arrive. Even so, whether you are old or whether you are young – we will each meet these three final words. 

It is indeed personal.

Every once in a while she attempts to lift her head and tries to talk but not much comes out. Her continual complaint is, “I’m tired.” She is mostly unaware of my presence while pray, cry out and pace. How do you fight for the very life you need to also release?

End of life. Three little words that change you, your perspective and the lives of those around you.

How do we live out the end of life? One day at a time seems to be the only answer.

So, this is what we are doing….one day at a time…we are surrounding the one we love…caressing her forehead and speaking into her ear our love…holding her hand…not just giving hope but being hope for a brighter heavenly tomorrow.

As I ponder what has passed us and what lies in front of us, I realize our responsibility and privilege is the same whether we are “living” in the end of life stage or whether we are not living in the “end of life stage” because truly we do not know what tomorrow holds.

So, what do we do? What do you do? What do I do?

Take an inventory of your heart.  

  1. Is your heart and mind right with those around you? In other words – are you IN offense….or maybe ON the fence in relationships? You know the enemy is a liar and his job is to kill – to steal – to destroy what God gives you to treasure and to hold near. Don’t assume you are “in the right” because your right can be very wrong in the eyes of the One Who desires unity with His friends.
  2. How is your mouth with those you hold dear? If tomorrow does not come with you and that person – how will you handle it? Will you be guilt ridden? Will you be filled with regret? Pain? Condemnation? If that is the case then you are a candidate for a new heart toward not just them but yourself and with God. Don’t go to sleep tonight without righting what has been wronged EVEN if none of it is your fault.
  3. Lastly, we do not take any of this earthly stuff with us…..not even the body we live in here on planet earth. What is precious to you? Where do you spend your time? Maybe – just maybe – you might need to re-prioritize your time, your efforts, your finances, your life so that you can live with you when it is all said and done.

Pray with me – Father, we come in Jesus name and ask You to reveal by Your Spirit any wrong done that has affected how we relate to others including ourselves. We change our mind God. We sever this from us and command it to be under our feet once and for all. Show us how to approach others for restoration – even if we are not in the wrong. We ask You to forgive us Father for You paid the price for us to stay in right standing with You and one another. We receive Your forgiveness. We forgive ourselves. We forgive them God – we know who they are and we choose to forgive. Show us how to talk to them before its just too late and the enemy has his way. We release Your peace, Your forgiveness, Your mercy and Your restoration into us and those around us in Jesus name and with His resurrection power which no foe can withstand. Let it be. Let it be.

Let’s continually surround those we love with our time and effort. Let’s speak to one another our sincere love and appreciation and encourage one another when it is still today to not just give hope but be hope….for a brighter, heavenly…tomorrow whether we are still here on this planet earth breathing breath or we step into heaven after taking our final one.


Much love – until next time,

Donna Reiners

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17 thoughts on “End of Life

  1. I’m sitting at my computer sobbing after reading your heart wrenching article. My heart breaks for you and your precious family and I am at a loss for words at this moment. Just know that I love you all so much and will continue praying until the end.

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  2. Donna I don’t know you and your family but as your sister in Christ I see you as a great inspiration in caring for your sister Maryanne. I have laid my hands on Maryanne’s picture many times praying for her as I know how it is to go through physical challenges. Pastor Maldanado on TBN just called for prayer for heart condition and she was lifted up. I pray Strength and Comfort for you and your family.

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    1. Carmen, that is very kind of you. Thank you so much for praying for my special, precious heavenly placed sister. Your prayers sustained her many times….this time….He called her home. Bless you dear friend..

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  3. My sister I truly share empathy of where you are yet in your own midst of storm you send WORDS of encouragement & wisdom, God Bless You! Our relationship doesn’t hold length but the HOLY SPIRIT keeps the connection & I thank GOD for you, your vision & your continuous commitment in sharing HIS WORD with me & others via email etc. May you continue in strength, have peace beyond understanding and comfort when weary. I pray that you continue to walk in the spirit and not in this realm of darkness we see with our visual eyes. HIS thoughts, ways & plans for us are much higher than ours, HE never makes mistakes & HE always walks with us. I’m only a phone call away & I Love you my sister.

    God Bless
    Cynthia Kyle

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    1. Oh my Cynthia…how I love you…your smile..your presence. thank you for your prayers and for your love…I look forward to seeing you face to face…..we will have to do that this year!! LOVE LOVE LOVE you!!

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  4. Donna, I pray for you and your family. What a beautiful picture of the true meaning of life. As I’ve walked with several people as they took that last breath, all that I was feeling and experiencing you have put into words. Thank you for walking a life that inspires so many others. Grace, grace, grace to you!

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    1. Jennifer…yes….it was my first time to do something like this alone. We were all in the room when my sister’s husband passed….it was so eerie to watch all the lines go straight in the monitor. We did not have a monitor in Mary Ann’s room and I did not even know really that she was gone…I was not sure…it was peaceful. I’m thankful…and sad…sadder…but know heaven is real. Grateful for heaven ..my Father is real. I’m His son and so was Mary Ann.

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  5. Thank you Donna. You don’t know how much God has used you to reach the hearts of others including myself. I thank God for your inspiring words and I pray for you and your family.

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  6. Hi Donna, I was unaware of what your going through, I’ll be praying for you guys; I lost my father about 10 years ago and for long time regrets and pain were my companions, only God with his great mercy was able to help me,I thank God for aloud me to meet you and for the wisdom that he gives you and I thank you for sharing it. Love you Donna, your sister in Christ. Sonia

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    1. Dearest Sonia….miss you my friend…thank you for praying..I’m so sorry about your dad…yes…regret is a strong devious companion…so glad He pressed you into Him so that you can walk with His presence instead. Love you.

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  7. Jennifer…yes….it was my first time to do something like this alone. We were all in the room when my sister’s husband passed….it was so eerie to watch all the lines go straight in the monitor. We did not have a monitor in Mary Ann’s room and I did not even know really that she was gone…I was not sure…it was peaceful. I’m thankful…and sad…sadder…but know heaven is real. Grateful for heaven ..my Father is real. I’m His son and so was Mary Ann.

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