Have you ever hidden yourself away so that you could not be condemned or found out? I wrote the following poem many years ago. It reflected a time in my life when I was afraid for anyone to know the real me for fear they would reject me. The truth is that some really do reject you when you show who you really are yet even in rejection – you can be safely hidden in Christ. So, I say it is time to come out come out wherever you are!
My Kaleidoscope of Fear
If I told you I was shattered and wanted most to fall apart,
If I told you I was broken and ever hurting in my heart,
If you felt the scars imbedded oh so deeply in my skin,
If you felt the depth of pain and saw the ugliness within,
If you had me on a pedestal to find I’m nothing like you knew,
If you thought the world of me yet found me sadly hurting too,
If you saw the tears that demonstrate a weary broken heart,
If you saw the lies that strangely hold me –
the ones that make me fall apart,
If you knew the kind of effort made to make it through the day,
If you knew the reason for my hardness – I wonder what you’d say.
Sometimes I long to tell you of my inward fear and pain.
But I think, “Oh no, you can’t see that part of me
for then you’d view me with disdain.”
Disdain for my weak mind and for the times I feel defeat,
Disdain for lack of order – the truth behind retreat.
Would you see through my hurt and taste my hunger for you there?
Would you walk with me in the garden though I’m naked and I’m bare?
Would you love me?
Would you leave me?
I want to encourage you today to #BEBRAVER and do not give up but follow through on coming out of your hiding place. Whether I was outright rejected OR I thought I had been rejected – even rejection does not define me and it does not define you. So, though your perception may have been your reality all these years….how about you remember Who you belong to! Be encouraged because the love of God will preserve you when man is disappointed in you and even when YOU are disappointed in you.
So, I say to you – come out come out wherever you are!
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Until next time,