Have you ever heard the public confession of a private extrovert?
Crazy huh? Well, let me tell you my story. So, one year I went back to the gym – as in I got a trainer and everything and this is after being out of the game for YEARS. My first day was of course amazing and it was not until two days later I discovered I could barely walk for the pain in my thighs from the new pressure I had exerted. Needless to say that the pain did not deter me as I was determined to move forward and I was consistent and diligent for 4 months. I was faithful to endure 2 workouts with a trainer per week and I worked out almost daily with just a few exceptions for appointments, exhaustion, family, etc. THEN, I had a moment of WAH!LAH! I made my confession that I could do this and thought I could be private at home and do this gym gig by myself. After all I’m doing GREAT! Surely, I do not have to be public in the gym to get my health back! Right? I was brave and took action. I purchased weights for 50 cents a pound, got one of those big honkin’ inflated work out balls from an expert, found some elastic bands for my arms, purchased a floor mat and even got an inexpensive treadmill. My confession made me go all out! I had been writing down all the exercises and just knew I would be able to be the same person at home that I was at the gym. I was OFF to the races or so I thought… After two months with only one workout to my credit I had a revelation with a new confession. My new confession was that I HATE being alone. Seriously? How can this be? FOR YEARS and I mean years my public confession of me not being an extrovert. I have exclaimed from the roof tops that I am an introvert! I have told myself and the world just how much I love my solitude and how I can handle just so much of people. What was wrong with me? Now, let’s fast forward into reality and hear the public confession of a private extrovert.
Why was I unsuccessful as an introvert?
So, I was UNSUCCESSFUL at working out alone as an introvert. WHY? Because I need people! Oh my goodness when the lightbulb went on I thought I was losing my mind. I looked back and carefully considered my steps. How can I be an extrovert? I love solitude. I like just being with me-I mean I really do-in all my quirky funky dressing talking humor I genuinely enjoy myself. Also, I’m pretty brave in how I approach life. However, as I bravely reviewed my true reality, I rehearsed in my mind all the times I spend alone. Then, I truly stared into how unfruitful my time was when completely alone at home or in a room locked away or even on a retreat by myself. On the other hand, I looked a how my productivity was when I picked up my computer and found public WiFi at St. Arbucks and remained there for HOURS just writing and talking and using my cell phone and calendaring my day and making appointments and making new friends. Again, now I’m making a public confession and I’m ready to add fuel to the fire for a bit of transparency.
What is the point?
Would you like to know when I get the most done in my own home? It is when someone is on the way over and I scramble to make sure the house is picked up or move quickly to create a fun meal for us. All of a sudden I am completely inspired to clean my office or garage and I find myself getting much done when they are here with me because I love to work with others. I know folks who get a thousand things done all alone so that they can go out and play. However, for me, I get a thousand things done when others come over to play! The point is that all these years I thought I was an introvert because I saw a program talking about textbook introverts and how they process all their information inside themselves and I realized how ME THAT WAS! I truly do take my thoughts on the inside. I consider life and God and I prayerfully and thoughtfully peer into situations and processes. Anyway, for my social well being and for my family’s well being I have come to the radical understanding that if I am not around people I am not a happy camper and if I’m not a happy camper….then no one in my home is happy either and that basically makes me a social extrovert………..with introvert tendencies. Crazy as it might sound…this little inspiration or revelation has helped me tremendously to get organized and to make sure I have more people contact and to recognize that if I’m feeling a bit blue or borderline depressed then more than likely its not because I’m sad or depressed or blue or anything else. Therefore, part of my public confession is that when I’m feeling a little lonely, all I need is a public shot of social interaction and then I’m back to being my same old funky quirky talk your ear off friend whom you can’t live without. LOL
How to be brave in your own story
Be Brave. Be bold regarding who you are today and who you want to be tomorrow. Read here another story about how I had to be brave in my identity. Show respect to yourself and get to know yourself. Take action my friend! You can move into the real you! You are victorious so do not let the voices in your head get you going down a wrong way street! Lastly be encouraged and you can right any mistake you have made regarding how you live life. Be Brave and thought it might take time – you are worth it!You are who you are so why not learn from my error of attempting to become someone I’m not. Just be you. Be you. Be the best you that you can be and learn how to rejoice in how God made you. God’s not mad at you and HE is not mad at me. HE rejoices over how HE made us and we should rejoice over how HE made us too….
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