Such a strange day to witness the darkness closing in over the city while experiencing it in my own soul. What do you do when darkness closes in?
I’ll be honest with you – right this moment – I do not know. So, I’ve turned to my expression when the pen of a ready writer takes over. What does that mean? I write until I’ve processed and come to a conclusion that hopefully helps me and maybe even helps you when darkness closes in.
I’m in a place today where I feel nothing inside except a loneliness and seeping notion that I’m sinking. My mind knows the truth. My heart knows the truth. I know I’m not sinking… yet…it threatens to overcome my day and overcome my joy. Deep inside my bowels, could it be that I’ve not received this joy that rushes in with a steady constant when darkness lures me into captivity? So, darkness does not come because I’m strong – it comes because I’m weak in an area that it can set its hooks into me. What an ugly thought if I do say so myself. With the sinister cloud hovering around me, I ask Him what to do as the darkness closes in. Have you even raised your voice to God? I did today and I think it is the first time in 22 years. I made a new step of honesty into God today as I was worshiping Him…but what came from my mouth was not worship but frustration. I ask myself and I ask Him why it is I continually come to a place where I feel I can step no more. Why do I come to a place where I feel no presence, no past and no future. Yes, I wrote presence in place of present. Its HIM I need – HIS notions – HIS confidence – HIS ideas – HIS emotions and HIS mindset. Somehow, I find myself here…once again…wondering what have I done wrong? Why do I stumble to the place of a brick wall? Here in this place, I feel I can go no further. Will I be old and gray when it is no longer an issue and when I am no longer able to lift my head? Oh where can I find comfort when darkness closes in?
Standing in the Gap for you?
Is this you? Are you the one I’m praying for today that has found darkness to be your friend – to be your confidant and your strength? The darkness lies to you with the intent to keep you to itself. Darkness only knows the depth of not belonging…of not being wanted…of not understanding…and of feeling unloved and unlovely. BUT, this is NOT YOU…let me give you a glimpse of God’s love for you that is nestled inside some words I read many years ago. In a time of reading, God opened my eyes to see life from His perspective. HE told me that He had sanctified me and set me apart for Himself. HE told me that once I had been of darkness but because of what HE did (notice it was not me who did it)…because of what HE did – I was cleansed and free to forgive and be forgiven and to love and be loved. What is it that HE did without our help that could be so powerful as to forgive us and give us the power to forgive others?
A LIFE WE DID NOT EARN
Simply said, the Father of our planet, of the world and its inhabitants sent His only Son to live a life that we could not live so that we could have a life we did not earn…I say that to you dear friend – you are not of darkness – not because of anything you have done but because of what HE did…HE did something you and I cannot do…HE gave HIMSELF so that you and I can love and be loved first by HIM and then by one another. HE came with HIS marvelous light and shined this light into the world so that we can see the Kingdom of God! I challenge you today to come with me on a journey to love and be loved, to experience the light of the world! In the video below, I’m praying for you and anyone you may know who is struggling to be free from the dark entanglements from the unseen realm…when darkness closes in.
The scripture where God showed me His heart for me was 1 Corinthians 6:9-11 – “Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? (this does not mean heaven). Do not be deceived; neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor the covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers, will inherit the kingdom of God. Such were some of you; but you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and in the Spirit of our God.”
WE WERE FREED WHEN WE WERE WRONG
Do you understand the power of this set of words from your Father? HE says HE has set you free and HE says HE has set me free by the name of the LORD Jesus Christ and in the Spirit of our God. Yes, He said if we continue to live in a lifestyle that opposes His freedom, that we will not possess the kingdom of God….here on planet earth…HE is saying HE paid a price for you and me to be free WHILE we were living a WRONG lifestyle. Now that’s some goodness there!! It is Good News what Jesus has done for us precious friend. Let’s pray together, shall we?
John 15:13 – Greater LOVE has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends. NAS
This is what God did for us my friend – laid down HIS life for us with HIS love – HIS charity – HIS benevolence – HIS feast of LOVE. Hope you will join me as we go on a journey into HIS LOVE that freed us from our wrongs…Until next time – Love, Donna Reiners