Many people think about being offended with others but they don’t think about what offense does within. It tears you apart. It splits you in multiple pieces. Being offended at yourself breaks down your physical body and it torments your spiritual soul. But you can move from changing to knowing …
What does it look like to be offended at yourself? it is like having a ping-pong ball inside your head going back-and-forth thinking about what you could’ve done differently. A ping-pong ball seems so small. It looks like it could do little to no damage. But over time, the regrets and confusion of wondering what you could’ve done differently destroy your esteem and removes your confidence. It is much more involved than that but for now this small ping pong example will do.
Metanoia is only part of the answer. Changing is in part but knowing is following through ..,
Metanoia is a word which means to change your mind but that is only part of the solution. Deciding to have no regrets is only part of what prevents the ping pong from wreaking havoc in your soul.
The solution is moving from the mere change of mind to the knowing of Truth that holds you in Life.
Making a decision that holds you on solid ground so you can have a new start is part of the solution.
You must move into a place of knowing. Knowing Truth and living from Truth only takes place when you live from Union with the One Who created you … the One you came from … the One Who knows you better than you know yourself.
How do you live from knowing? Well I am so glad you asked …
There is an space inside where you get to make a new decision about you … where are you get to receive the love that lives inside you that perhaps you have never accessed before. It is a process and yet it is also a one time event. The condition of Forgiveness took place at the cross and yet it took place at the beginning of time as well… God came after Adam… He did not ignore Adam when he and Eve disobeyed. Jesus never leaves us nor forsakes us. They are right there with us in the middle of our messes. Leading and guiding by the Spirit.
Love is a condition inside you that perhaps you did not grow up with. Perhaps you’ve been used and abused and never thought Love lived inside you. But love is a Person and Love lives within you… Sometimes you have to move past all the noise to hear the sound of love within. You are good enough. God Lives inside you. You do not have to earn his love. You never had to earn his forgiveness. You are forgiven. You are loved. You get to access it here on this side of the heavens And receive all that love has for you. It is a process. One day at a time. 1 inch at a time. One decision at a time. Two steps forward and three steps back. Over the river and through the woods. You are never alone. You are loved.
And slowly but surely, you realize that the ping-pong ball has less and less power to control you. Little by little you let go of the torment and grab hold of the triumph of the love and forgiveness from within you. It is a journey. It is not a destination. It is not a vacation. It is an adventure. Learning to live from love and rule and reign and govern yourself by the love of God instead of the ping-pong ball of emotional turmoil.
There is an energy and a frequency and a love that you have already that is Triumph. You are worthy my friend.
Join the journey and know that Jesus is already in your midst.. leaning into you.. The Faithful One will help you move from changing to knowing. Love-d