Suddenly love again. A precious woman is faced with her husband’s life here on planet earth ending way too soon. Suddenly.
Life changes. Life ends. People divide. Anguish separates. Love my friends.
It’s intense. It’s mind boggling. Love is the only offering we have for one another. When you don’t understand. Love Again.
When you are misunderstood. Love. When you hear rumors. Believe the more excellent way. Keep short accounts.
When you seemingly can’t forgive. Love. When others won’t forgive you. Love.
Do not mistake your personal distrust as your discernment. Listen not to a gossiper. Just love. Unconditionally. Then, love again.
No, it will not always end up ok. They may drop your friendship with zero explanation. You may be a train wreck. It might be messy. Just owe nothing than love. Then LOVE. Love you. Love them. Love again.
At times convoluted and painful? You bet! Love anyway? Yes. It is His way when you feel unable to trust yourself or them. Live with that Love instead of your own. Love Again. Love-d
Hello friend, I’m having surgery Friday morning (at the time of this writing that is tomorrow). It is unexpected but is a step in my journey to getting oxygen to my brain. Oxygen to the brain can heal grey matter. Oxygen to the brain can seal up a blood brain barrier that is like a cyclone fence. Oxygen to the brain can help your hormones heal. Oxygen to the brain can help your brain sleep when it is time for REM. Funny really … we don’t know how God is going to lead us until we move with Him. HIS leading to me is down a road I would not take with logic. But this last year when my body was shutting down and all my positive mantras and meditation pieces failed, you get to take action … with Him in other ways. We can be so convinced that the positivity tour is the only way – I have heard and soaked and understand. Then, we can lean into the voice of the Christ Who is the Way Who leads us into Life His way … HE loves for us to live. I believe HE loves to lead us through that inner voice…. and let me say that the Inner Voice is personal – its not a vibe – its not just a frequency. It’s the voice that breaks the cedars, causes mountains to melt like wax and gives you creative ideas that change society … or your family bloodline with a Word from Him that brings Life and Love to move cities into relationship with Him. It’s deep and its personal and its worth waiting for – its not always yes – it is sometimes no because what Father always just says yes to whatever a kid wants? Good Fathers have wisdom and timing and avenues for us to follow Him through…building our relationship and giving us Love along the way that causes our security in Him to be secure.
This surgery Friday has to do with sinuses and takes about an hour. If you are a praying person and not a preying person, I welcome thoughts of full recovery 🙂 Over the river and through the woods …this is the journey… sometimes into the desert and sometimes into an ocean but in Him and with Him, we are empowered to walk out our lives victoriously. Will we sometimes be in pain? You betcha? Will we sometimes feel clueless? Duh. IS He faithful inside to lead and guide – oh yes.. So, bless you in your own river and your own woods and your own discovery tour in Christ to know Him.
Last thing… I was talking with someone today about His voice and His life and I discussed how God knows Who He is …that HE does not have an identity crisis and that if they…the person I was talking with did not believe in the Christ…that if they said something like this, “from my spirit alive in my Creator.” …that our God knew Who that was….and our Father would respond. Father is more than able to sync up with this friend and share His goodness and His love so that my friend knows how joined and all in HE has always been …
Relationship friend. Not religion. We don’t have all the language perfect. We don’t all have an academic theology in place.
Oh, but the #Christ? The One Who #dances with you from the inside – HE will never leave or forsake you..even on the bumpiest ride. Until soon and much love…see you after #surgery Friday.. D
My husband told me last year that he really wanted me to start writing about my how my emotions were impacting my life and I realized I was in a new day and I needed a new strategy.
I thought he was crazy because I help others in their emotional demise and so why on earth would anyone be that transparent regarding a field others come to them for help with?
Also, last year, I had an encounter with a publisher who in my dream time, called me on the phone and invited me to publish a book. How on earth?
All these clues about writing yet reluctance became my friend instead of paying attention to what I’m hearing in my own two ears.
Over the past year and a half, I have had some physical changes which have caused me to question my sanity and sometimes my existence.
Yep. Been strange. But then, new day – new strategy.
It has taken me almost a year to break free of the fear of writing authentically about what I feel and experience … because I have not wanted anyone to think I’m crazy.
I’m finally in that place of I don’t care so here goes.
Today, I go in for a second brain scan to determine if I have had any positive changes since the last one. Oxygen has not been getting to my brain … for almost 20 years. What do I need? A new day – new strategy.
And I wondered why my body broke down?
And I wondered why my emotions hit a wall?
And I wondered why I felt I was going crazy?
And I wondered … well … you probably don’t want to know everything I wondered.
Since I do not believe in a dark night of the soul – suffice to say – I’m in a new place in my life regarding relationships (not many), faith (stronger), trust in society (less), loneliness (richer and stronger), family appreciation (stronger and deeper), fear of dying (still dealing with this one) and… the list goes on…
I realize that I’m simply having a season not unlike yours where you are finding out your weaknesses are your greatest strengths and how God wants you to mature in your weaknesses not shrivel up and die from them. Husbands. Help. Hormones.
So, that is what I’m confronting these days – my inability to just snap out of it and rock on like I used to … I’m literally having to stop. I’m having to slow. I’m having to be alone. I’m having to breath in and out with greater intention. I’m having to look at things like hormones and oxygen to the brain and cell life and water and… friendship with myself and humanity. I’m having to literally say no to just going out and be happy to remain at home with nothing but my paintbrush because anything more makes me want to cry. New Day – New Strategy.
Pretty confident I am not alone in the changes taking place. I’m almost positive you – my precious reader – have been undergoing strong changes and you are stepping into your greatest hour of discovering just what you too are made of.
Don’t give up.
Remember God looks at everything and is not as compartmentalized as we are and HE has solutions for things we think are hopeless and HE is more practical than we think He is as well… like…if you are cold…put a sweater on or use a blanket … if your car is out of gas – fill it up … like your physical body has issues so pray about this for 10 years with zero help and watch it fall apart because God is not healing you … WAIT… I mean… take some practical steps friends in determining what they hey and partner with Him for life and living…
In case nobody has told you lately – I love you.
Go look in the mirror and tell yourself you love you too..
Until soon and though you may not have a husband – and though you may not need help and though you may not have hormones making you crazy – you may have something else looming… Let Father show you and lead you into His love and kindness as you figure it out with Him. New Day – New Strategy.
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Grace is the Way.
It’s been a season among seasons but are we changing or clinging?
Learning to trust Them with our situations. Hearing Their voice. Doing our part in practical ways.
Serious situations arise where we have a need for someone else’s expertise. So, we go to the doctor for perspective and listen for His voice. We sell treasures for bills as we listen for His voice. We choose pathways of life as we listen and respond. We jump with trust and then we realize we may have jumped too soon or too far. We don’t jump at all and miss the ship that was sailing. Or did we? Are we changing or clinging?
We stand in the street and wonder if we will survive what we must face. In the midst of letting go of what once held such great value, we realize our own worth has shifted. We have less treasury but have more treasure. What we loved twenty years ago has emotional ties but no longer is the heartbeat of my daily life.
Yet, we keep holding on to that way of eating or that material object or that attitude to reinforce our fear of tomorrow… or to avoid facing our private pain … or to sabotage from self hate. Oh it’s subtle. But it’s delay into a new you. Is is because we are changing or clinging?
We realize how fortunate we are to share space with the person we sleep near and we hear His voice of Love. Our assignments can seem foreboding yet can we climb those thorns and find the comfort inside the sweet smelling rose? Can we truly unconditionally love that one near us? Can we love ourselves?
Are we changing? Or are we clinging to what used to be the road we walked?
It could be – after the dust has settled – we will find that what we thought was impossible to say goodbye to is the actual entry through a new door. It might be that the lessons we learn as we change will be beautiful and our hearts will be more tender and our love will flow more purely…as we say goodbye to the past and hello to the present. Oh that we will be changing not clinging.
This is a reprint from earlier this year. Love- Donna
My friend, inside each of us we must face the Truth and BE LIGHT in our own storm instead of continually looking for a light to help us through the storm.
But it takes great intention to decide you have the goods to pass through this storm.
BE Light. Be there for yourself.
Not good enough?
Feeling left out?
You are not a victim.
You are victorious.
Whatever your obstacle is, you can be your own light.
It might feel dark and you might feel incapable but go look yourself in your own eyes…into your own heart and own pool of swirling emotions.
Look past your hurt.
Look past your pain.
You HAVE to CHOOSE to see through what you feel into what is truth. These are different. One captures you and takes you into use and abuse you. But, Truth. Truth is different. Truth wraps arms around you and tells you not to the swirl and no to the confusion.
Truth is a Person and that Person says look into your eyes one more time – look past the swirl and look into the eyes of Truth staring back at you from your own eyes.
You are not alone. You WILL pass through this. Allow yourself to rise up into this new place of life and let Light be your Truth.
Be LIGHT in your own storm and love yourself as you do it.
Good Grief Charlie Brown! Tonight, we watched an oldie and what I used to think was a goodie – Race for your Life with Charlie Brown. I never noticed how entirely critical and mean those kids were to Charlie Brown. Peppermint Patty yelled at him numerous times. Lucy called him names. Sally complained every moment of the movie. There was another group of kids who created havoc for all of them. In addition, these kids were on an overnight camping trip with water falls, dangerous caves, and the like. Granted we rarely see adults in these shows but this time it felt ridiculous. Craig pointed this out to me multiple times. It literally was a frequency my body rejected. Grief is not good Charlie Brown..
It hurt my heart the more I watched it. Bullying, complaining, gossiping, unkind words, mean spirited kids and it was literally from the beginning to the very end. It reminded me of how I grew up. The time was 1977 and I grew up with that kind of culture. It was like the norm and it seemed acceptable. But, grief is NOT good.
Grieving yourself or others with unkind words, complaints, thoughts and innuendos that make it impossible to believe in yourself is not good. I was 14 years old and I was not treated nicely at school or otherwise. All it did was produce rejection, low self esteem and a fear of love. This picture is of my sister Sandy and me. We were from a very dysfunctional family who did not show love toward one another. We do now but we did not then and the influence of shows like this one is evident in how we treated one another.
Maybe it does matter what we watch with our eyes just like it matters what food we put into our mouth and it matters what we listen to with our ears.
Usually, I love the Charlie Brown movies because they are clean and have a good premise and you laugh. But, I did not laugh much this time. I’m a different person than I was in 1977 and I do not want to return to the person who felt it was okay to be ruthless and retaliatory. I want to allow the influence of Love to have its way and do its work in my heart and in my body. Grief is not good.
I pray today you will take notice of your words and thoughts toward yourself and others. Love is the way. Grief is not good. Love, d
Exchange STRUGGLE for STRATEGY. I have been in a struggle for years. Sometimes it was strife filled but no longer. Now, it’s life fillled. Listening. Daily. Struggle for strategy. This is the key. So, what’s your struggle? Mine has been health? Maybe yours is something else? Family. Responsibilities. Parenting. Adulting. Gambling. Porn. Workaholic. Alcoholic. Crises after crises. Under planning. Over planning. No planning. No miney. Too much money. Stress. Strife. Competition. Stubbornness. You name it.
WE have to see how to maneuver through these days and exchange our struggle for strategy.
I’m getting new thoughts. New ideas. New ways. New processes. A fresh start to hear and see. I’m exchanging my struggle for strategy…
You can receive a strategy to depart from that thought into a new thought, It’s not too late… It feels too late in some areas but it makes me press in more to hear and understand…so don’t give up… Love-d
This little phrase is pouring through my mind – “TAKE JOY MY FRIEND – it’s not the end.”
Have courage with a brand new start. Don’t let the naysayers have their way. But command peace in your new day.
It is a choice you see to love and then Another choice to live forgiven.
So come with Me says Christ in you. I’m right here – I’ll see you through.
I’m in you and you in me. Freedom is yours in My intimacy.
It is not up to them to decide your life. It’s okay – I took that knife.
You’re free to live My Life of Love. I’m here, there, down below and above.
Oh you can run but you can’t hide. I’m your Love – you’re My Prize.
If you live in your hurt I won’t leave. I’m still right here – trust & believe.
I’m with you for the long haul dear one. I’m your Family – you’re My son. PS- you and I already won.
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Hope says He is my security even when I run circles with Voices in my head. What about the voices in your head?
Oh, but it does not feel like that does not? Sometimes the storm inside is so full of voices and thoughts and ideas that you think you’re going crazy. Yet, there is One Who is not in favor of you going cray cray. Nope, They want you to lean into Them for security and stability. Father, Son and Spirit are standing strong and still as you run circles. Oh, They speak but They speak in calm not fury. Maybe you are so accustomed to the swirls that you don’t see or discern the Peace available in the midst of voices in your head.
It is like you feel attacked by birds of prey and you feel like there is no use to pray.
Yet, God is there – waiting to capture your heart and set you in a new way.
Stop and be still and hear His heartbeat instead.Do not be afraid of the voices in your head.
If you are living, you will make mistakes in this Life journey – don’t be afraid.
The choice each day to live courageously or cowardly is right before us. Sometimes it seems darker than it is. I’m learning how to recognize the hesitation attached to fear versus the caution attached to wisdom. If you feel you might be in the fear driven, compromised zone then ask for wisdom. Don’t be afraid.
Asking for wisdom is a sure fire way to grow and mature and find courage. You’ll discover solutions to problems and strength to rise. I have a simple practical example for you. I had dental surgery in early March and my mouth took two additional weeks to heal. Four long weeks felt so slow and caused concern. My organs had been fighting infection from the tooth issue and compromised my immune system even more. It was physically challenging and my health was dim.
Now we are in May and my mouth is still awkward and sore. I noticed I was moving into fear. Whoah. Stop. I paused. I asked for wisdom. I asked for direction. Don’t be afraid was whispering into my ear and attempting to redirect my thoughts.
Then I saw it. I’m grinding that area of my mouth at night. I realize that’s why I’m sore. It’s my answer. It’s simple. It’s not anything bigger to worry over. The wisdom was seeing Truth instead of assuming the worst. The Truth is that I’m ok. Don’t be afraid.
If fear is needling you at night then switch gears instead. Ask for wisdom. God is gracious to extend it. Ask with confidence and wait with assurance. Answers will come. They may not come overnight but surely your footsteps will be directed. Don’t be afraid.