I See

I see Life is inevitable and then there is life again.

Well, so I feel like I am experiencing what my mom experienced when she was dying at my age (57). I don’t like it nor want it but am not sure how to proceed other than to write it out.

I had dental surgery a few weeks ago and my body is still reeling – from the impact of an infection (still making its way out of my body)
from the impact of the sedation (still making its way out of my body) and the dehydration I had already experienced before the tooth was ever removed.

Since January or so, my esophageal sphincter has been stuck open (I am retraining it to be closed through a chiropractic help). The gastroenterologist was of no help as they only offered a pharmaceutical to soothe the acidic reaction. But the sphincter is getting triggered by either food, emotions or something ..unsure… event? Frequency?? Do not know. Did this happen to my mom? How did she pass through this season of her life?

My body is lower than the low acidic levels and so I’m working on monolithic eating with high alkaline causing foods. It is slow. It is a choosing with intention what I put into my mouth and a choosing with intention to eat it until it is mush in my mouth. I need the nutrients.

I remember Mom losing weight. I remember our last Christmas. I remember her weighing 118 pounds and I am at about 128 pounds right now. I have lost from 148 til now since about December/January… this is 2020 now…. Was that what happened to her?

My body is hungry. Was she hungry?

Was she unable to eat?

Did she feel misunderstood? Unnoticed?Uncared for? Alone?

I remember my dad leaving her at home alone as he went out on a date with a friend’s mom. I found it disgusting then. I did not understand his unkindness.

Now I see his selfishness.

And I see how out of control he felt at not being able to stop what was happening to his wife of 36 years. Now, I have compassion at him feeling powerless. I see.

I also remember him swearing to stop smoking when she was diagnosed which did not last long – he still smoked in her face.

I found that disgusting too. Now, I see his nervousness and how incapable he felt to care of his wife. He was a man’s man from surviving Pearl Harbor and other wars to living through raising 4 daughters … but this caring for his wife? This was different. This was painful. This was deep and this was where the rubber met the road. I see.

That was 1981.

It is 2020.

39 years.

Is this cellular memory for me? A twisted cellular frequency? If so, what triggered it? Why are these strange and odd incidents happening? I have no idea.

Is God revealing all of this to me?

Unsure. But it is revelatory.

I am fighting to trust and believe this is not my time to die. It feels silly to even be thinking it yet that is what is on the tip of my lips. Wow. It is an intensity I have never known.

Was she wanting to live? Choose life.

I remember asking why she was going to do chemotherapy and radiation.

Her response? It is my chance to live. She chose life. I see.

She wanted to see me grow up, get married – she wanted to live her days to see grandchildren – which there was only one and I’m thankful to know that niece today though her mom/my sister has passed away into the next realm. She wanted to see all her daughters succeed and she wanted to be part of our lives. She loved us. She was special. She was my best friend. She wanted life.

I have other issues I dare not share right now. So, I’m relearning how to live it seems. I’m learning how to eat it feels like for the first time. I see.

Bone broth is my friend.

So are green beans, asparagus and water. I love water. I love life.

I’m on a journey and you are too so don’t give up on me and I won’t give up on you.

I’ll be updating soon on food, restoration and life – life – life.

Until soon friend with an update and much love with life I see – Donna Reiners

Struggle for Strategy.

Exchange STRUGGLE for STRATEGY.
I have been in a struggle for years. Sometimes it was strife filled but no longer. Now, it’s life fillled. Listening. Daily. Struggle for strategy.
This is the key.
So, what’s your struggle? Mine has been health? Maybe yours is something else?
Family.
Responsibilities.
Parenting.
Adulting.
Gambling.
Porn.
Workaholic.
Alcoholic.
Crises after crises.
Under planning.
Over planning.
No planning.
No miney.
Too much money.
Stress.
Strife.
Competition.
Stubbornness.
You name it.

WE have to see how to maneuver through these days and exchange our struggle for strategy.

I’m getting new thoughts. New ideas. New ways. New processes.
A fresh start to hear and see.
I’m exchanging my struggle for strategy…

You can receive a strategy to depart from that thought into a new thought,
It’s not too late… It feels too late in some areas but it makes me press in more to hear and understand…so don’t give up…
Love-d

Joy.

Have Joy. You don’t get it all together all at once or at one time. Sometimes, it can be a lifetime to figure life out. God does not condemn your meanderings. Be not regretful. Be not stressed.

Take the good and the bad and all the in between and count it all as experience. Let Love pour over you not unbelief in you or God or others. Dream and take action in your dreams and let the chips fall where they may. You might need help launching you, your business, your health, your life or your work. Have Joy while on the way …

Just learn how to ENJOY every step you take whether it is cleaning your body, your house or someone else’s body or house. Let your setBACK be a setUP to a new beginning instead of a bummer or drag that it did not go according to your plan. Oh the Joy.

Let JOY define each moment not anger, naysayers, sickness or pieces that want to rob your progress.

Encourage yourself friends. Encourage yourself in your decisions both short term and long term. Remember it is not over and it is okay. Find Joy.

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See you on the other side of your process – until soon with joy. d

#Bare

My #bare face is big for all to see. 

I’m 58 this year having outlived my mother who died at 57. I have lots of #laugh lines, #cry lines and #joy lines.
Sometimes, as our bodies grow older, we face things we never knew we would face. Sometimes other people can help us face those things as we move forward. Have you ever lived misunderstood, disappointed or divided by man’s assumptive opinion?
But at the end of the day, it’s face-to-face with you and face to face with me. It’s a new day and in the midst of more tears there is opportunity to trust Them more. #Bare.
It literally can be excruciatingly painful and bitter and sweet all at one time to come face-to-face with yourself. In the mirror you see into your eyes lots of mistakes, lots of desires, misunderstandings and also many years that if I concentrated on them I would want a do over in. #Bare.
And choosing Joy that allows contentment? Now I believe the me I am today is acceptable and pleasing with or without my paint and I’m learning not to allow the opinion of others to taint how I see myself or how I believe God sees me or intimately knows me.
Interesting tip. Others are going to misunderstand you. You are going to make mistakes. You are sometimes going to be flat out wrong. And sometimes you’re going to be correct. But is it really about right and wrong? Reconciliation is always the heart of #Christ. When you remain divided, it is not his idea. The cross was enough. The blood was enough. #Resurrection is enough. Forgiving and being forgiven should be our immediate go to – not a have to – but an immediate ..”I’m forgiven and you are #forgiven.” Righteousness, peace and power in the Holy Spirit is who lives inside of me. I am his house. I am God’s House and you are too. Bare.

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Be Bare.

Righteousness, peace and power in the Holy Spirit is who lives inside of me. I am his house. I am God’s House and you are too. Love- d

A little rant …

A little rant. Someone was talking to me about how “high” their frequency was … and they commenced to tell me “how” they “kept” themselves so full of the “right” frequencies and not the wrong ones.
Honestly, I almost spit my drink out. A little rant …

They proclaimed how mature they are and … one of their strategies for maturity is staying away from negative people.

Again, I just about laughed aloud.

I seem to recall the Greatest Teacher sharing on LOVE being patient and kind, enduring and not self seeking. LOVE loved to love…

My discovery? A little rant …

If you are literally staying away from people who love God …
If you are staying away from men or women who have a desire to be like God…
if you are staying away from those who are like little kids in their trust …
If you are staying away from those who desire to know Him …

A little rant … Then honestly you’re the one who needs the identity – frequency change. You are separating yourself from the very ones whom God loves and is transforming.

If you are really so full of LOVE then you’ll be too busy loving instead of comparing.

Jesus said Love is the Way.
Love is the highest frequency.
Love is a Person Who lives and moves to be our Friend.

So if you honestly feel your love is mature and your response to this Love in you is to unfriend those whom you think don’t measure up to your frequency – you just created a separation from a place called comparison and emotions not love transformation called Done. A little rant …

There is always gonna be somebody more transformed or perfected than you. The weak and strong are supposed to live and love together. Family is supposed to LOVE one another WHILE we are being transformed.

I encourage you not to sow into some elitist attitude while calling it love especially if you follow Christ. Eventually it just backfires anyway…A little rant …

Love is the Only Way that matters and the presence of those you feel DONT fit in with your definition of peace or rest only don’t fit because of you not extending love not because of their lack of love.
End of A little rant ….

More than a Word

Faith.

It’s more than a word.

Trust.

It’s more than an action.

You don’t know until it’s you…

Facing your body’s need for..

A kidney, liver, brain stem.

You don’t know til it’s you faced with

cancer, ataxia, tumor, Parkinsons.

You don’t know til you’re the one whose spouse, child, sibling or parent died –

In your arms, on your watch, in your home, in your classroom, on your property.

Yes, you may understand. You may feel you believe.

But understanding and knowing are not the same.

The other day I understood from an X-ray that I had a calcified bone spur that needed attention. Then, I was treated for it and know by experience (through the most excruciating pain I’ve ever felt in my life) that I had a calcified bone that needed attention. After weeping, crying, yelling, weeping again…I KNOW it’s an issue.

I’ve prayed, commanded, imagined, meditated, and levitated (not really) in faith, trust and authority. Not restored.

So, I took action steps to address it. Wow. I did not know I could withstand that kind of pain. Had no idea I could or would endure.

I left thanking God for a pain filled arm as I thought of a precious woman who literally has one arm due to a flesh eating bacteria that attached her other one. You just don’t know til you know…

You and I may understand with the head but are out hearts far away?

I’m learning to pause before I presume to truly know what pain, heart ache, confusion, loneliness, insecurity, or feelings of shut down another has. I’m learning to look around and find someone else who wants to be noticed, understood, listened to, acknowledged, remembered…LOVED…

I encourage you to receive fresh compassion for the hurting which might even include your pain.

Not empathy. Not sympathy. These are weak fleshly tools.

Compassion is powerful. It is a strong supernatural super power!!

Compassion is Love & kindness.

Time is priceless.

Your presence is valid. You’re important. You’re significant. You matter.

I encourage you to pause and look yourself in the eye. Then look that other person in the eye. You may feel pain you cannot resolve. You may see wisdom from suffering. You may even see God looking back at you. What will you say in response?

I encourage you not to presume that the person who no longer comes around to see you is lazy or busy. Maybe they too are passing through unspoken issues, pain.

At the end of the day, most are doing the best we can.

So, instead of deciding to discount that person whom you think should get it together …

or … condemn that person you think should know better …

or … talk down to that person whose worth is in the toilet without your reminder …

Or … forget the compassion you want if you ever have to walk in their shoes …

Or feel you have zero worth because you’re alone… so you make certain you’re not…

Remember, that hate – that low self esteem – that yucky feeling – you feel is only hurting yourself…your atmosphere.

So, let it go.

One more time.

Again. Learning. Soooooo much to learn about being present. Noticed. Unnoticed. I’ve been crying more. Listening. Realizing. Valued. Weak yet strong. I’m seeing my errors. I’m not feeling condemned but I’m seeing my own issues. Forgive me those who know me personally for not being present when present. Forgive me those who have felt condemned online.

When I was a kid I had a big mouth.

I talked wayyyy too much to cover it up.

I hated myself. I was filled with strife.

It’s took me years to forgive my own hell.

Love was the answer as was His reply.

Receive your inheritance of life.

From your spirit alive in Christ.

Sow into the incorruptible seed of Love ..

From Those within not just above.

More than a word

Process of Progress

Donna Reiners, Lifecoach, Bravetobraver, donnareiners.com, author, Speaker, leadershipI call it the process of progress. Many people wonder if they are taking three steps forward and two steps back. I find perspective is everything. You may feel stuck like a hamster in a wheel of sabotage, sickness or death filled thoughts. When properly identified, you can have most cycles broken and your heart rewired. It can happen in a moment. I have found most the time, you get to renovate your mind one moment at a time. You get to make a lot of new little decisions that take you over time into a brave new you. The beauty of time lapse is the maturity in the processing of progress. I work with people overtime to unlock the why behind the what so they can recognize it when it knocks on their door in a different package. I help them remove what has caused them to remain in torment, turmoil and overwhelming stress and paralysis. It is a deep work. But it is a long lasting work. It takes patience and kindness to walk out life with people. Sometimes, I have a client that wants a quick trip to the store to get an answer. Most times the key to competency, security and loving yourself is to go deep so you can go far. It is not a drive through experience with a 99 cent menu. Many little decisions every day allow you to change the direction of your body, soul and spirit. I cannot overemphasize the power of the process of your progress. Do not forsake the process of progress. When choosing a different future, I want to encourage you not to allow yourself to regret. Regret is a powerful foe. It will bring you back into a hamster wheel. Sometimes, we unlock 50 years of living in a direction that unbeknownst to that person was not healthy. All of a sudden a lifetime passes before their eyes and they realize there is no gaining it back.

Do not focus on what was behind you.

With intention, take a step forward And mature in the process of your progress.

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Someone who cares this new year

Be someone who cares this new year. Someone who gives. You do not have to be a “caregiver” to care giving. You can give where you are whether big or small. First let’s talk about big.

I know a woman who has loved deeply. She has held the hands of women and men as they live their last breath on planet earth. It was not as a hospice nurse or paid caregiver. She has cared enough to give her time, resources, affection and passion to see another live…and then die.

Some of these would have died far before their time. She has valued them when they had no value. She has treasured them when they felt they were trash. She has been their companion when they would have died from loneliness. She has cared enough to give.

In her own search for value and identity, she has preserved another’s value and identity.

She is deep water. In essence she has given her life for another. Her maturity came at a price and her love is now priceless.

Let’s talk about small. But is any action of giving really small to God? Giving soup to the woman next-door who has been sick and cannot feed her family. Cleaning the yard of the elderly couple down the road because they just can’t seem to have the strength to do it anymore. Telling the mom who you can tell is about to lose her temper with her children that she is doing a good job… Because she thinks any minute she’s gonna lose her mind. Loving the person you are with even though they are depressed and don’t seem to like you anymore. Loving them with no expectation of anything back just because you know they are lonely and I need a validation and friendship. Valuing them. Valuing you. Valuing life on the planet. Loving the person you are with even though they are depressed and don’t seem to like you anymore. Loving them with no expectation of anything back just because you know they are lonely and need validation and friendship. Valuing them. Valuing you. Valuing life on the planet. Loving yourself when you look in the mirror instead of turning away with disgust at how you no longer like the way you look.

Let this new year Be your opportunity to find a value in you and those around you. In small ways or in big ways. Love is the answer. You have permission to give a care about you. And then you have permission to give a care for those around you with that same kindness.

Happy New Year dear one.

Love- d

There was a time…

IF you can relate – type I GET IT! There was a time many years ago when I would not sleep for #fear I would wake up dead.

There was a time many years ago when I blamed #sickness on disease. There was a time many years ago when I refused relationships for fear they would die and leave me alone.

There was a time many years ago when I agreed with doctors who said I would not live past 30.

There was a time many years ago when I agreed I would die like my mom.

There was a time many years ago when I felt you would not love me if you really got to ‘see’ me.

There was a time when I thought I would disappear into depression.

There was a time when I gave up and wanted to die.

There was a time…

There was a time…

There was a time…

But God.

I said, “But God.”

Yes, it sometimes required a #fight.

Yes, it sometimes required my will overriding overwhelming #emotions filled with #darkness and #despair.

Yes, it required me contending for life I could not yet see.

But God.

I said, “But God.”

So, my #friend if you have read until the end, I want you to know that overcoming that which wants to overcome you is worth it.

Knowing That One Who overcame the world and lives inside of you and lives inside of me is worth it.

And I’d do it again.

You – don’t you give up and don’t you turn back and don’t you give in to those #death filled thoughts and ideas. Choose life because Life chose you and you were and are worth choosing. But #God. I GET IT!! Share so that someone struggling about ‘there was a time’ will choose life. #REPOST Love-d

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Scars run deep

Braver Saturday -Time may heal but scars run deep. I know a family. The woman told God that their relationship was going on the back burner. That she would pick up her relationship with Him later. The results? Marriage ripped apart. Families and friends ripped apart. Divorce. Is it all fine now? Sure. Time may heal but scars run deep. Sometimes wrecking your own and other people’s lives is avoidable. If we just listen and obey. Be righteous even when it hurts. Even when you are so deep into it that you feel there is no way out. Cry out to Father. He has the solutions. HE has not left you. If you are in rebellion and you still hear His voice then I encourage you to not take advantage of the grace but tune into His righteousness and let him lead you. Who knows? Maybe He has a different or better plan? A byproduct of relationship with Father is you want to please Him. In this place called Grace, is there still obedience? Did Jesus obey so that we did not have to??? Is that really the grace Father has for His children? To do the wrong thing on purpose is still called rebellion even in grace. Kinda like a little kid who is asked to make their bed by their parents. Perhaps disobedience is at times just immaturity? Father has no condemnation but He does have correction that brings direction. Thoughts? Love-d #moms #marriage #church #jesus #death #life #professional #fit #blogger #faith #blog #instablog