LIGHT Your Own Storm

My friend, inside each of us we must face the Truth and BE LIGHT in our own storm instead of continually looking for a light to help us through the storm.

But it takes great intention to decide you have the goods to pass through this storm.
BE Light. Be there for yourself.

Humiliation?
Disappointment?
Sickness?
Discouragement?
Denial?
Not good enough?
Feeling left out?
You are not a victim.
You are victorious.

Whatever your obstacle is, you can be your own light.
It might feel dark and you might feel incapable but go look yourself in your own eyes…into your own heart and own pool of swirling emotions.
Look past your hurt.
Look past your pain.
You HAVE to CHOOSE to see through what you feel into what is truth. These are different. One captures you and takes you into use and abuse you. But, Truth. Truth is different. Truth wraps arms around you and tells you not to the swirl and no to the confusion.
Truth is a Person and that Person says look into your eyes one more time – look past the swirl and look into the eyes of Truth staring back at you from your own eyes.
You are not alone. You WILL pass through this. Allow yourself to rise up into this new place of life and let Light be your Truth.

Be LIGHT in your own storm and love yourself as you do it.

Different

I’m not you. You are not me. We are different on purpose. There is a Process. The way we live, move and have our being will look different. We are not made from a cookie cutter. How we hear and how we see and how we approach life and we live it will be different.

The process of relationship with Him, self and one another. I’m pondering our differences as a human race as I think about how He lives among us too. Setting my mind on things that are above and not on things that are on earth is a process for me personally. Learning to listen. Inclining my ear to hear His thoughts and ideas about Himself, others, myself and life. Different.

It’s been a lifelong process of relationship – leaning His way and then stopping to find Him leaning my way. I’m thankful for every moment He has granted me the honor of living, loving, being loved. It’s a journey into Him and into His continual mercy, forgiveness & grace. The journey includes the mistakes not just the successes. I love the way Paul talked about counting it all as loss just to know Him. He knew the journey. We are in union with the One Who does not condemn our wrong turns. Instead He draws us further into His definition of Love. He also doesn’t put so much emphasis on our right turns either because it’s not about the right or wrong when it is about relationship. Prices Different.

Righteous is different many times than right. Deep inside my bones, it seems our emphasis is misguided. Love is the focus but what does that look like? I read a lot about Love. Yet, how we experience Love is a different matter. Experiencing the embrace He offers takes courage because His Love is unconditional and has no secret strings attached; it has no hidden agenda. HE already knows. Everything. Nothing is hidden from Him. Listening to Him. Listening to one another. Listening to what is said as well as what is not said. I remember listening to what my sister Mary Ann did not say. It held weight. It held depth. Loving to love. Being Loved. It’s an exchanged life. Just being. Loving. Being loved. Letting Him steer you personally as His hands, His feet and His heart in service in our private world as well as on the earth. Different.

Every person offers something different from Him and through Him while representing Him. I’m soooo thankful to Him for how He thinks outside the box to live as Love through us in our time here on the earth. What an interesting life. Sometimes I’m standing at a crossing wondering how to proceed. It’s a journey with Him. Sometimes I’m standing with a friend at their crossing while they wonder how to proceed. It’s not just you and not just me. It’s also with one another. It’s a journey into Him. It’s also a journey into one another. Process different.

Being Loved by Him and Loving one another. I’m in awe of His miraculous kindness. To let us learn how to be while He leads us into becoming. Be patient with yourself. Be patient with Him. Be patient with others. Loving as well as being Loved is a process. Learning how to love and learning how to be loved is a process. It takes time. That’s ok. Working through the process IS part of the journey. The revelation of His complete unconditional love for us IS part of the journey. The revelation of His complete unconditional Love for one another through us is also part of the journey. Private. Public. Different.

It’s living in Him, with Him, through Him and as Him…what a journey. What a process as we are different.Love-d

Process

We process from a different space. We process our pain from a different Place – the Person of Christ processes our hurt and pain with us – not outside of us. ***Get with Him. Get with Them. Get with the Source of our Strength – our Life – our Love – our Eternity – our Foreverness – get with THOSE WITHIN you and me and then LOVE those around us with power and strength and compassion and life and understanding. Process

THIS is our inheritance – we have confident expectation through living and dying that we live…and then we live again. Oh how this Reality is more real today. Will we settle in the pain? Process.

Oh, it will feel almost like you are betraying yourself or the one you want to honor but is it? Have we trained ourselves to grieve as the Law allowed? Have we trained our emotions to believe we must not only embrace sadness and depression but then remain there to honor the one who has gone from us or to honor those remaining? Emotions are strong. They want to keep us immature and in the will of the flesh and the will of the law of condemnation and sin. But is this our inheritance?

Pondering our loss today of our beloved brother and friend who lived to speak the Truth and to mature us in our races of Love and Being. I’m forever thankful for his life here with us and hope to encounter his life amongst us as I process.

Process with #DarrinBegley

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HOPE Says I’ll Keep Going

My precious friend – Hope says I’ll keep going.

But what do you say? Are you willing to take one more step though you feel as if you do not have it in you?

I’m here to encourage you and tell you that yes you have it in you.
Though you may have dreams that seem to be on the back burner – rest assured – you are not on the back burner.
This is not false hope.
This is not false encouragement. You can move forward.
If you do not have energy to take a true step then mentally take a new step toward life and living.
Expect Life to meet you and expect love to greet you and expect yourself to keep going.
I know what it feels like and that one saying – I’ll keep going – has kept me in days when I felt it was not possible.
So, say it with me, “I’ll keep going.”
Until soon and much love – d

I’m sure of God

I’m sure of God.
I did not always trust God. I was not always sure of God. I look back on life and can see all the ways He attempted to stop me, help me, redirect me, love me or give me wisdom. Man fell down on the job countless times yet every time, this God Whom I barely recognized was always rooting me onward. Being sure of God was the furthest from my mind. I had not had the deep realization of His life inside me even when I was in complete disagreement with His love, security or identity. As a matter of fact, I understand now that though my dad was not a good dad (though he did the best he could with what he knew) – God was still a good Dad to him AND to me and my family. You seen, religion will tell you God camps outside to make sure you get your act together in order for Him to be pleased. But, instead it is just opposite. HE camps INSIDE until you know Him and until you recognize His presence and until you can say with your own mouth – I’m sure of God.

What a Father. I was blown away when I realized how faithful God is – we have Father – Who is our Architect. We have Christ, His Son Who is Creator and we have Spirit Who leads us back into the Three Who live inside us the one. It is personal and it is public and it is real and it is authentic. No matter where you are – there they are.

You can be in the filthiest pig pen of confusion and unbelief and Those Three are right there with you prodding you into Their heart for you until you turn and get out of the mess. We are His and there is no running away. LOVE that about Them.Yes, you can say you are sure of God and I can say, I’m sure of God.

Is Euthanasia for you? Babies & Old People – Break from the norm…

Is Euthanasia for you? You may not get to choose.
I just read an article discussing Euthanasia including a forced and seemingly tricky move by a doctor and family regarding a parent. This also can include children. Surely not? Oh yes and though not all countries with universal health care have legalized euthanasia, Netherlands, Belgium, Columbia, Luxembourg, Canada, Switzerland, and Germany have universal health care and apparently are on board. I ask – is Euthanasia for you?
Did you know there are currently 10 places in the U.S. with legalized euthanasia? Physician-assisted death or Suicide Assisted Death or “medical aid in dying” is legal in ten jurisdictions: California, Colorado, District of Columbia, Hawaii, Montana, Maine, New Jersey, Oregon, Vermont, and Washington. Is euthanasia for you?

If you would like to read the article that sheds light on this very current subject – you can do so here –

https://www.breakingisraelnews.com/149348/the-netherlands-legalizes-euthanasia-even-against-the-patients-will/

I realize this is not my normal jam and so my apologies if you are offended – but honestly – when you are pushing 60 – life looks a bit different. True relationship with those whom you consider “family” is important. You might think it is unthinkable but is it? There is a reason, we are encouraged not to allow our hearts to be hardened.
Blessings and until soon – d

Hope says I trust God

Hope says I trust God.

Hope is used some many times in a weak or timid way. Yet, hope is a strong word. Hope is a powerful word. Hope has great meaning. It is weighty. It is meaty. You can have hope – great confidence – expectancy – you CAN have trust when you can’t seem to trust yourself.
I have lived a long time now and see those years when I was so clueless (oh, I still have a few moments” and when I felt so insecure and had nothing to look forward to. Basically, I was wrapped in a swirl of false identity and had no trust for myself. I saw decisions I made – one after another fail until I felt like a complete failure of the biggest kind. Sadly, lived this way for a long time. I ran a very long time and at the time, I don’t think I knew I was running. I ran because I did not feel like I could trust myself.

Now, I get it – though I could not trust me – I could still trust God. Always, Hope says I trust God.

And now, I also get this other strong and deeper truth. Inside me was this God who I did not know lived within. I had no idea He loved me so much that He chose to live inside of my deepest failures, strongest anger or stormy nights.
I see now that I may not can always trust me – Hope says I trust God.

Until soon and much love, d

Hope Says I’m Patient

Hope says I’m Patient.
Your confidence – your expectation – can be raised. You do not have to live short of courage or strength. You can be steady. You can be tolerant of your own shortcomings. You can love yourself. You can learn how to be patient with the person who should be your closest friend – yourself. You can lean into joy and into peace. No more do you HAVE to be unkind to you and impatient with yourself. Listen, loving you and being patient with you is critical to your true and real life … the real you deep inside. Maybe you exercise self control with everyone but you – maybe you keep it together and are nice to your environment but when you look yourself in the mirror you lose all consciousness of kindness. WHOAH. Stop friend. True hope says I’m patient.

You get to be patient and kind and loving to you too. Say it with me, “I’m patient.”
If you practice this kindness and this response long enough and repeat this action of warmth and love long enough with you – it will become who you are and not just an action to take.
It is almost funny really when you think about the actual word impatience. IT says, I’m Patients.
A patient is usually someone in a hospital being cared for by others because of a physical or mental issue isn’t it?
So, you be your own patient. LOVE YOU. Care for you! This love and care will spread to those around you.
Practice these words, “I’m Patient.”

Until soon and much love – d

Love yourself well

Love yourself well.

It’s a choice

How do you personally get free from judgments if you always remind yourself and others of wronging or being wronged? It’s a choice.

Jesus wiped away all the wrong and being wronged. He chose.

Are we going to wipe away the memory of what He did on behalf of humanity? What happened to Him was atrocious.

So, His intention was forgiveness for all mankind.

Are we going to continue to hold unforgiveness for any and all mankind? Or receive what He did for all mankind’s wrongs including yours, mine and those who wronged our bloodlines? Choice.

If I continued to remind my family of their abuse (for the purpose to make sure they never do anything wrong to me again) how do you think that would go? They would feel condemned. Also, how would they ever forgive themselves? Had I held their wrongs against them…it would have held those same wrongs against myself. Choice.

I am not about to remove my family from my presence because they remind of how I was abused?

If I’m reminded of how I was abused, it is because I am still clinging to my wounds and I am unhealed in my heart.

What if I beat the hell out of my sisters for beating the hell out of me?

What if I hated their guts and wanted nothing to do with them because of how they treated me when I was a kid? Seriously. Think of the process of hatred and how it rules and reigns in the thought life…

It bears no good fruit whatsoever… it just causes more hate. Choice.

Just thinking aloud.