For those who care about food allergies and the like..
For those who care about food allergies and the like..
I see Life is inevitable and then there is life again.
Well, so I feel like I am experiencing what my mom experienced when she was dying at my age (57). I don’t like it nor want it but am not sure how to proceed other than to write it out.
I had dental surgery a few weeks ago and my body is still reeling – from the impact of an infection (still making its way out of my body)
from the impact of the sedation (still making its way out of my body) and the dehydration I had already experienced before the tooth was ever removed.
Since January or so, my esophageal sphincter has been stuck open (I am retraining it to be closed through a chiropractic help). The gastroenterologist was of no help as they only offered a pharmaceutical to soothe the acidic reaction. But the sphincter is getting triggered by either food, emotions or something ..unsure… event? Frequency?? Do not know. Did this happen to my mom? How did she pass through this season of her life?
My body is lower than the low acidic levels and so I’m working on monolithic eating with high alkaline causing foods. It is slow. It is a choosing with intention what I put into my mouth and a choosing with intention to eat it until it is mush in my mouth. I need the nutrients.
I remember Mom losing weight. I remember our last Christmas. I remember her weighing 118 pounds and I am at about 128 pounds right now. I have lost from 148 til now since about December/January… this is 2020 now…. Was that what happened to her?
My body is hungry. Was she hungry?
Was she unable to eat?
Did she feel misunderstood? Unnoticed?Uncared for? Alone?
I remember my dad leaving her at home alone as he went out on a date with a friend’s mom. I found it disgusting then. I did not understand his unkindness.
Now I see his selfishness.
And I see how out of control he felt at not being able to stop what was happening to his wife of 36 years. Now, I have compassion at him feeling powerless. I see.
I also remember him swearing to stop smoking when she was diagnosed which did not last long – he still smoked in her face.
I found that disgusting too. Now, I see his nervousness and how incapable he felt to care of his wife. He was a man’s man from surviving Pearl Harbor and other wars to living through raising 4 daughters … but this caring for his wife? This was different. This was painful. This was deep and this was where the rubber met the road. I see.
That was 1981.
It is 2020.
Is this cellular memory for me? A twisted cellular frequency? If so, what triggered it? Why are these strange and odd incidents happening? I have no idea.
Is God revealing all of this to me?
Unsure. But it is revelatory.
I am fighting to trust and believe this is not my time to die. It feels silly to even be thinking it yet that is what is on the tip of my lips. Wow. It is an intensity I have never known.
Was she wanting to live? Choose life.
I remember asking why she was going to do chemotherapy and radiation.
Her response? It is my chance to live. She chose life. I see.
She wanted to see me grow up, get married – she wanted to live her days to see grandchildren – which there was only one and I’m thankful to know that niece today though her mom/my sister has passed away into the next realm. She wanted to see all her daughters succeed and she wanted to be part of our lives. She loved us. She was special. She was my best friend. She wanted life.
I have other issues I dare not share right now. So, I’m relearning how to live it seems. I’m learning how to eat it feels like for the first time. I see.
Bone broth is my friend.
So are green beans, asparagus and water. I love water. I love life.
I’m on a journey and you are too so don’t give up on me and I won’t give up on you.
I’ll be updating soon on food, restoration and life – life – life.
Until soon friend with an update and much love with life I see – Donna Reiners
Update on a bizarre day. First thank you to the kind friend who brought me an oil blend to help the sinus and jaw/head pain go away today. It would have worked if it weren’t for operator error …
Second thanks to my husband who did not panic as his wife started crying from the burning pain in my eyes from oil dripping into both eyes. I am thankful Craig lead my blind eyes and body to the shower so I could thoroughly wash with Johnson’s Baby shampoo until my eyes no longer burned. He was brave.
I thank Jennifer for thinking quickly and getting coconut oil INTO my eyes to wash the burning oil out of my eyes… who knew?? Girl… that was gold. She was brave.
Thank God I was not alone to look for my phone with both eyes shut while crying from the burning wintergreen and other strong oils…which are not to be placed in our eyes 👀 but I guess I did not think through the oil part too well.
Thankfully people thought quickly. Thankful I did not have to call 911. Lately I have been on the receiving end while facing challenges with fresh transparency and a new perspective of authenticity.
Interestingly, I have also been encouraged to hide weaknesses … keep everything upbeat! Think positive! Meditate it all away… after all it worked for this person and that person so just do what they do … I get that too and don’t get me wrong – I’m a leaner into amazing, positive and all being well and I believe … we can all be brave.
I am also learning that keeping it real is more honest than avoiding what is painful, ignoring what is uncomfortable or just pretending that everything is hunky dory when I’m in the process of my progress.
Instead of disassociating or compartmentalizing, I’m learning how to be brave while facing adversity … Loving myself through complications. Living with myself as others drop off for healthier “friendships.” Honestly that’s okay – loving one another when life is all good is easy but it is that whole rubber meets the road thing. I’m having to love at a distance while embracing wellness and letting others figure out how to be brave.
Its interesting really – to be in another vital season of bravery as we move forward in calculated ways.
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See you on the way to the other side – wait – maybe we are brave already …
A season like no other being tested as great, mighty or ?. A time that tests the fibers of your very core. It was not too long before I had a pretty rude awakening on my weaknesses in a clear and upfront way. I’m seeing that if it can be squeezed, its being squeezed. If the trigger can be triggered – its triggered. If its wine time, then I may be the grapes being used to crush.
I vacillate between the great and mighty woman of faith I am already to the girl on the floor on her knees reminding God of her existence and … gulp- her needs. Physical needs sometimes seem overwhelming but so do emotional and mental needs. I’ve been the one who believed for those who had no belief in themselves. I’ve been the one who help the hand of the one who wanted to say goodbye to their life. I remember the stricken look in the eyes of paying and non paying clients who wanted and needed a line of strength or they literally thought they would not make it. I remember those comments of not wanting to wake up or not seeing a Reason to get up or basically a desire to check out and stay checked out. I believed when they did not. What is my point? Great or Mighty or?
I know what it feels like to believe for someone’s life as if their life depended on it – because it did depend on it. I saw them through crisis after crisis after crisis and then they changed and no longer needed me to hold their hand or they found someone else to hold it perhaps.
Interesting season when you face the need for your own faith to be there for your own life and not the belief for the life of someone else’s. It takes every fiber in your being to stay focused, to stay engaged and to not falter as you determine how to live. Great or mighty or ?
It is a strong season or is it? I don’t fully disclose what my life faces right now and others do not either. Some friends have diseases that threaten their lives, job losses threaten their shelter, treatments coming for folks who would have rather experienced the supernatural miracle, viruses overwhelming a body, bacteria wanting to rule an immune system, weakness wanting to take an elder down and isolation tearing some apart. The list goes on.
Remember Who lives inside you and remember His Good news for you.
Remember and focus on the good.
When the bad overtakes – remember you are disciplining yourself in a new way today. You are rewiring your brain.Its a new beginning. A new foundation. A new opportunity to love and be loved, to be kind and to listen with your heart and not your ears. Oh, this is the test for me for sure. Listening with His perspective – this is how we endure this season and how we live through it and come out better.
You asked for transformation – and now it has arrived.
Know you are loved and you are great and mighty. Love,d
My #bare face is big for all to see.
I’m 58 this year having outlived my mother who died at 57. I have lots of #laugh lines, #cry lines and #joy lines.
Sometimes, as our bodies grow older, we face things we never knew we would face. Sometimes other people can help us face those things as we move forward. Have you ever lived misunderstood, disappointed or divided by man’s assumptive opinion?
But at the end of the day, it’s face-to-face with you and face to face with me. It’s a new day and in the midst of more tears there is opportunity to trust Them more. #Bare.
It literally can be excruciatingly painful and bitter and sweet all at one time to come face-to-face with yourself. In the mirror you see into your eyes lots of mistakes, lots of desires, misunderstandings and also many years that if I concentrated on them I would want a do over in. #Bare.
And choosing Joy that allows contentment? Now I believe the me I am today is acceptable and pleasing with or without my paint and I’m learning not to allow the opinion of others to taint how I see myself or how I believe God sees me or intimately knows me.
Interesting tip. Others are going to misunderstand you. You are going to make mistakes. You are sometimes going to be flat out wrong. And sometimes you’re going to be correct. But is it really about right and wrong? Reconciliation is always the heart of #Christ. When you remain divided, it is not his idea. The cross was enough. The blood was enough. #Resurrection is enough. Forgiving and being forgiven should be our immediate go to – not a have to – but an immediate ..”I’m forgiven and you are #forgiven.” Righteousness, peace and power in the Holy Spirit is who lives inside of me. I am his house. I am God’s House and you are too. Bare.
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Righteousness, peace and power in the Holy Spirit is who lives inside of me. I am his house. I am God’s House and you are too. Love- d
Wow. We are out to eat and lo and behold I see the longing to make a memory on Eighties Band Night at Mo’s Irish Pub.
As I watch women flood the floor to dance with each other, my heart understands their loneliness AND their desire to simple to have some fun. Sadly, I saw spouses turn their wives down to dance due to what? Lack of security? Embarrassment? Unwillingness to be seen with her or them? An opportunity to make a memory cane and went..
Hey!! Make memories. Don’t be bound by fear of man, need for approval or feeling not good enough.
Enjoy you. If married – enjoy your spouse. Get over it friend! Love the one who leads you to be uncomfortable and free… Dance. Sing. Love. Laugh. Remember to make a memory…
I call it the process of progress. Many people wonder if they are taking three steps forward and two steps back. I find perspective is everything. You may feel stuck like a hamster in a wheel of sabotage, sickness or death filled thoughts. When properly identified, you can have most cycles broken and your heart rewired. It can happen in a moment. I have found most the time, you get to renovate your mind one moment at a time. You get to make a lot of new little decisions that take you over time into a brave new you. The beauty of time lapse is the maturity in the processing of progress. I work with people overtime to unlock the why behind the what so they can recognize it when it knocks on their door in a different package. I help them remove what has caused them to remain in torment, turmoil and overwhelming stress and paralysis. It is a deep work. But it is a long lasting work. It takes patience and kindness to walk out life with people. Sometimes, I have a client that wants a quick trip to the store to get an answer. Most times the key to competency, security and loving yourself is to go deep so you can go far. It is not a drive through experience with a 99 cent menu. Many little decisions every day allow you to change the direction of your body, soul and spirit. I cannot overemphasize the power of the process of your progress. Do not forsake the process of progress. When choosing a different future, I want to encourage you not to allow yourself to regret. Regret is a powerful foe. It will bring you back into a hamster wheel. Sometimes, we unlock 50 years of living in a direction that unbeknownst to that person was not healthy. All of a sudden a lifetime passes before their eyes and they realize there is no gaining it back.
Do not focus on what was behind you.
With intention, take a step forward And mature in the process of your progress.
You don’t know how your #story ends so don’t end it prematurely. #coach #life #business #women #author #ISC19
It’s like this. People are not always going to be there for you. They may trick and deceive you. They may even want you dead. BUT. BUT. You get to make your own choice. You have permission to live. Nobody controls you unless you let them. Nobody berates you unless you allow it. If you are filled with low self-esteem, self-hatred, self-harm and disrespect for you then you will attract others who want to push you down, cause you to hate you more and cause you to turn on yourself. BUT. BUT. If you think so little of you that you allow that to happen to you then YOU ARE THE ONE WHO NEEDS HEALING. Do you hear me? No. What they are doing is wrong…but equally wrong is what you are already doing to you. You can change. You have permission to live. You have permission to love yourself. Go #live life and learn how to #love you.
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Blessings dear one – Donna Reiners.
I want to talk about the power of intention. Taking hold of your thoughts… Capturing your thoughts… It’s done intentionally. It is not a random act of kindness. It is an intentional action on the inside of you that captures an ill willed thought and stops it from moving out of you into the space of another human being. If you find yourself entertaining a thought or an idea or an out right curse toward another person… Stop and reconsider. Picture yourself snatching it up with your hands … and throwing it into a trashcan. Cancel that thought. Look at that thought in your mind and put a great big X Mark on top of it. Canceled. Denied. Reject that thought from living inside of you and cancel that thought from going after another person so that it lives inside of them. Intention is powerful. Let’s be intentionally kind toward ourselves and toward others. Love, d #christianity #prayer #splankna #selfhelp #bebraver