Death in Disguise

The struggle with thoughts of #death disguised as #grief is real. Turn your thoughts to life even if it’s one inch at a time… it’s possible for light to turn on in a #dark place. Give yourself permission to live. Love-d

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There was a time…

IF you can relate – type I GET IT! There was a time many years ago when I would not sleep for #fear I would wake up dead.

There was a time many years ago when I blamed #sickness on disease. There was a time many years ago when I refused relationships for fear they would die and leave me alone.

There was a time many years ago when I agreed with doctors who said I would not live past 30.

There was a time many years ago when I agreed I would die like my mom.

There was a time many years ago when I felt you would not love me if you really got to ‘see’ me.

There was a time when I thought I would disappear into depression.

There was a time when I gave up and wanted to die.

There was a time…

There was a time…

There was a time…

But God.

I said, “But God.”

Yes, it sometimes required a #fight.

Yes, it sometimes required my will overriding overwhelming #emotions filled with #darkness and #despair.

Yes, it required me contending for life I could not yet see.

But God.

I said, “But God.”

So, my #friend if you have read until the end, I want you to know that overcoming that which wants to overcome you is worth it.

Knowing That One Who overcame the world and lives inside of you and lives inside of me is worth it.

And I’d do it again.

You – don’t you give up and don’t you turn back and don’t you give in to those #death filled thoughts and ideas. Choose life because Life chose you and you were and are worth choosing. But #God. I GET IT!! Share so that someone struggling about ‘there was a time’ will choose life. #REPOST Love-d

#coach #life #lifecoach #lifeisbeautiful #live #anxiety #mentalhealth #mental #health #christian #jesus #writer #author #church You are loved – Donna Reiners

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Changing my Focus

Braver Wednesday – it’s not as easy as thinking that whatever you think you will get. But what if what you are thinking in the negative will never come to pass? Then you wasted all that precious time thinking dreary dead filled thoughts. Let’s change our focus. Let’s expect something different. Let’s hope for more. Let’s enjoy where we are while on the way to where we are going. Love, D

Suddenly

Tenacious Tuesday – Suddenly. The news came. One day soon, his life will end. Harsh to the ears though it was spoken gently from the doctor. Still it’s a shock. Life seems brief. When you finally think you know how to rule your own life- your life is over on planet earth. Starting over. Live well my friend. Love well. Keep no record of wrongs. Be at peace. Make forgiveness a priority. It’s imperative as we prepare for the other side.  Until soon-d

Light up the Dark

Fearless Friday- Why don’t you be the light in someone else’s darkness? As believers we justify walking out life alone because Jesus had friends unwilling or unable to stick with Him. We spiritualize loneliness saying our ‘need’ or someone else’s need should only be for Him. Perhaps we should heed His admonition to His disciples to remain awake? Perhaps this is an example of how we can be friends with others. Once someone begged me to be their friend. The intense need this woman had was unbearable. Over time I watched her blossom and bloom through our friendship. She never became dependent on me for her source of happiness. She just needed some light in her darkness so she could find her way out. 
In the family of Christ we should be healthy & mature enough to be friends with others. We should not have to beg for relationship with one another. Is it possible we should see the need of isolation as significant as shelter, food, or water? A possible breeding ground for suicide, sickness & bitterness may be lack of relationship. So, why don’t you light up someone else’s darkness? You might gain a lifelong friend. Love, d 

 

The Piece Between Living & Dying

Tenacious Tuesday – End of Life. It continues to roll across my mind…over and over and over it speaks to me. First it comes as a whisper and then it is louder than the voices of those around me. Most certainly, these three little words have a stronger significance when it has to do with you or a loved one.
End of life.

It is intense.

It is intimate.

It is final. 

It is no respecter of persons as it comes to every single one of us. 

Sometimes it is sudden. Sometimes it is a process. Sometimes you are ready and sometimes you are not ready and truthfully even when “ready” are you ever really prepared? Sometimes you want it now as in today and then, sometimes you wish tomorrow would never arrive. Even so, whether you are old or whether you are young – we will each meet these three final words. 

So, let beginnings and endings be your friend. Be fearless in life and death. Let friendship with Living prepare you for dying and let God be the Piece that connects the two.

Until soon, d 

 

Life Turns Upside Down

Super Saturday – Some years ago, a closer than close friend was diagnosed with a disease called Multiple Sclerosis (M.S). She lives with her sister because the doctors said she could no longer work or drive. All of a sudden, her life was turned upside down. It devastated her to “not be able to do her job.” She took such pride in her work and was very good and respected in the work place. In a way, she got much of her self-worth from her job. After all, she spent at least 8 hours per day in the corporate setting and was paid “to do a good job.”  Can you relate? Now, to be released from those responsibilities and told she was “incapable,” was like throwing ice cubes in her face. Though her mind was slowing, her heart was, and is, still in tact. We sadly watched the changes that took place. Her thinking and reasoning changed, her short-term memory is minimal, her confidence diminished, her attention span dissipated, and her physical and emotional balance went off-kilter. Her caregiver took her to a doctor who specializes in Alzheimer’s disease and cognitive thinking problems. After a long battery of testing and prodding, he concluded it was “inconclusive” as to whether or not she had M.S. As a matter of fact, the test results showed her B12 to be so deficient that it could have killed her. Furthermore, in a meeting with neurologists and specialists, it was discussed how a severe B12 deficiency mimics the same results as M.S.  It eats away at the Myelin Sheath covering the nerves. The kicker is this – that a B12 deficiency could have been addressed. Could she have begun taking B vitamins?  Perhaps most of her brain could have been preserved? No one knows.  It makes you think though, doesn’t it? Could all or most of the distress she has gone through been avoided by taking a simple B vitamin? So, the effects are irreparable without a miracle. What were the options? Sue the doctors?  Dive into self pity? What do you do when your life appears to be brought to ruin, and then realize you could have stopped the devastation? What do we do when life turns upside down.

Until soon and much love,

d