Chronic Pain

Fearless Friday -Pain has a way of debilitating a person. Your days miserable. Your nights sleepless. Constant agony brings a forced smile. You want to hide reality but authenticity calls you. The last thing you want to be is a downer but really what is there to be up about. People don’t want to be around you because everybody wants happy. Yet happy is a memory. This is my question- how do you help someone who is in chronic pain?

1. Don’t not see them just because you don’t like their negative attitude. 2. Don’t not call them just because you don’t know what to say. Don’t condemn what you aren’t experiencing.

Listen. Just learn how to love by reaching out…one day at a time…one call at a time and one visit at a time.

Until soon/d  

 

Protect Yourself

Motivated Monday -It is God’s desire for us to stand in a firm place, to Behold Him and sing praises to Him, so that others will taste and see and know that HE is the Lord God Almighty, and put their trust in Him. So, if you have been in a pit by choice and you know it, today is the day for you to choose freedom. Cry out to the Lord! Change your mind about desiring to stay in pity and choose this day to desire freedom. If you are willing to agree with God and trust Him in freedom, then He will answer you and pull you OUT of the pity of depression, pain, and grief and give you a firm place to stand. What about you? Have you ever realized how your “horrible circumstance” could have been avoided by taking some very simple steps? How did you respond? Can you see any walls in your own heart that came into existence when you were young – maybe you were careful to protect yourself from feeling emotions that would cause you pain? In Jesus name, let’s pray together – God, I come out of agreement with protecting me from you and everyone else. I choose to trust You. Show me!!  Help me. Amen.

Until soon and much love – d

Not the Norm

Motivated Monday-Okay so not only am I not the norm but this commentary is not the norm.

My norm is that everything is okay or going to be okay and that the devil is a liar and that you can pursue Him and come out on top.

Today is not the norm.

I’m in pain, not feeling well, uncomfortable, dizzy and confused. There I said it…it’s almost like a cussword when you say to a Christian that you are confused…yet sometimes it is what comes. My question to myself is how long do I give myself permission to live here?

Someone I know seems to hate my optimism. Hates my viewpoint of life. Hates that no matter what, for the most part, I remain at peace. Angry that I don’t shed the same tears, yell at the same militants, lose my composure. They think if I don’t express myself the way they express themselves then I must be not feeling anything….yet ..they don’t know or maybe don’t care to know that if I lose my peace – I’ll go to pieces…

Would they like me more if I lost my mind? Yelled. Threatened others. Stomped to make a point. Agreed with their anger to such a point that I got so angry that I threw glasses or plates or ran my car off a cliff? Hurt myself? Hurt others? 

I won’t return to who I used to be.

So how long will I remain I this state of being? About a second.

Ain’t got NO TIME to fall to pieces. I’m realigning with peace so that I can walk with the God of peace and make decisions from peace instead of pieces of distress. 

Love, d

Darkness Closes In

Darkness Closes In

Darkness Closes In
TIME TO GET UP!

Such a strange day to witness the darkness closing in over the city while experiencing it in my own soul. What do you do when darkness closes in?

I’ll be honest with you – right this moment – I do not know. So, I’ve turned to my expression when the pen of a ready writer takes over. What does that mean? I write until I’ve processed and come to a conclusion that hopefully helps me and maybe even helps you when darkness closes in.

I’m in a place today where I feel nothing inside except a loneliness and seeping notion that I’m sinking. My mind knows the truth. My heart knows the truth. I know I’m not sinking… yet…it threatens to overcome my day and overcome my joy. Deep inside my bowels, could it be that I’ve not received this joy that rushes in with a steady constant when darkness lures me into captivity?  So, darkness does not come because I’m strong – it comes because I’m weak in an area that it can set its hooks into me. What an ugly thought if I do say so myself. With the sinister cloud hovering around me, I ask Him what to do as the darkness closes in. Have you even raised your voice to God? I did today and I think it is the first time in 22 years. I made a new step of honesty into God today as I was worshiping Him…but what came from my mouth was not worship but frustration. I ask myself and I ask Him why it is I continually come to a place where I feel I can step no more. Why do I come to a place where I feel no presence, no past and no future. Yes, I wrote presence in place of present. Its HIM I need – HIS notions – HIS confidence – HIS ideas – HIS emotions and HIS mindset. Somehow, I find myself here…once again…wondering what have I done wrong? Why do I stumble to the place of a brick wall? Here in this place, I feel I can go no further.   Will I be old and gray when it is no longer an issue and when I am no longer able to lift my head? Oh where can I find comfort when darkness closes in?

Standing in the Gap for you?

Is this you? Are you the one I’m praying for today that has found darkness to be your friend – to be your confidant and your strength? The darkness lies to you with the intent to keep you to itself. Darkness only knows the depth of not belonging…of not being wanted…of not understanding…and of feeling unloved and unlovely. BUT, this is NOT YOU…let me give you a glimpse of God’s love for you that is nestled inside some words I read many years ago. In a time of reading, God opened my eyes to see life from His perspective. HE told me that He had sanctified me and set me apart for Himself. HE told me that once I had been of darkness but because of what HE did (notice it was not me who did it)…because of what HE did – I was cleansed and free to forgive and be forgiven and to love and be loved. What is it that HE did without our help that could be so powerful as to forgive us and give us the power to forgive others?

A LIFE WE DID NOT EARN

Simply said, the Father of our planet, of the world and its inhabitants sent His only Son to live a life that we could not live so that we could have a life we did not earn…I say that to you dear friend – you are not of darkness – not because of anything you have done but because of what HE did…HE did something you and I cannot do…HE gave HIMSELF so that you and I can love and be loved first by HIM and then by one another. HE came with HIS marvelous light and shined this light into the world so that we can see the Kingdom of God! I challenge you today to come with me on a journey to love and be loved, to experience the light of the world!  In the video below, I’m praying for you and anyone you may know who is struggling to be free from the dark entanglements from the unseen realm…when darkness closes in.

The scripture where God showed me His heart for me was 1 Corinthians 6:9-11 – “Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? (this does not mean heaven). Do not be deceived; neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor the covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers, will inherit the kingdom of God. Such were some of you; but you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and in the Spirit of our God.”

WE WERE FREED WHEN WE WERE WRONG

Do you understand the power of this set of words from your Father? HE says HE has set you free and HE says HE has set me free by the name of the LORD Jesus Christ and in the Spirit of our God. Yes, He said if we continue to live in a lifestyle that opposes His freedom, that we will not possess the kingdom of God….here on planet earth…HE is saying HE paid a price for you and me to be free WHILE we were living a WRONG lifestyle. Now that’s some goodness there!! It is Good News what Jesus has done for us precious friend. Let’s pray together, shall we?

John 15:13 – Greater LOVE has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends. NAS

This is what God did for us my friend – laid down HIS life for us with  HIS love – HIS charity – HIS benevolence – HIS feast of LOVE. Hope you will join me as we go on a journey into HIS LOVE that freed us from our wrongs…Until next time – Love, Donna Reiners20140215-NDIP10129

 

Still Stuck in a Parking Lot

Surely, I won’t be here long…this is what I would ponder…as I asked myself why on earth was I still stuck in a parking lot.

I am at the end of an odd season. Everything within me wanted to give up and turn back and give in and look down. However, this was new territory for me since my mantra for some time had been just the opposite. I pondered a little bit on how many friends would stick around if I was no longer the go to friendly let me pray for you person who encouraged when life was bleak or dark. It only crossed my mind but let’s me honest now…how many friends have you chosen NOT to hang out with or be friends with WHEN they are not their usual fun self? This may not be you but it is some of you. God wants us to rejoice when others rejoice…but He also wants us to weep when others weep – not condemn, not try to change, not try to hurry them along so they can get with the happy program. But how about you take just a moment out of your day to be their sunshine, lighten their load, give them a word of encouragement, be their spiritual mom, friend or confidant. Are you able or willing to make room for others when they are not who you want them to be in YOUR season of life? Don’t be condemned and don’t be upset. God says it’s okay to go there – after all – honesty is a fabulous place to sit when still stuck in a parking lot.

Encouraging Myself

Thankfully, I’m about to the end of a season where I have been weeping any given moment of the day. Sadness would take me over and I would just cry and cry and then cry some more….and then I would be fine again – until the next wave of sad rolled my way. It was as if I had turned into a Hallmark commercial because I teared up at the strangest moments! I could have thought I was losing my mind but that was not the case. The LORD is my light and my stronghold whether I’m in the dark or in the light. HE still lives in me and through me and does not leave when I’m not on the top of my game. I think that is the challenge with all of us when living out life with one another. It’s easy to be around someone who is a happy camper but a whole new story when their day has turned dark and they need a friend to light a candle for them because they have no strength to even find the matches. Still it’s a beautiful season for me personally because of my relationship with the Lord…its so sweet and so timely and so good. I’ve been sitting in my prayer room listening to some specific lyrics from Merchant Band when they sing, “You are so good – You never leave, like I think You should. You are so kind ….You still give me life. I’ll let You make me, I’ll let You break me, I’ll let You fix me until we’re One.” It’s on repeat until I switch over to another song by Jason Upton when he sings, “Come up here, come up here My beloved” and he sings about John on the Isle of Patmos and his encounter with God. Powerful. In case you don’t know, John was banished to an island because of him being a follower of the Christ. He had to encourage himself in The Lord for many years because in a much stronger way than me, he was definitely stuck in a parking lot.

Enemy of Our Souls

You might ask if I’m feeling sorry for myself – no that’s not it. You might ask if I’m hurting or in pain – no, not as far as I know – but it could be part of it. Frankly, I have a sneaky suspicion that some of the emotions and ideas stem back to earlier in the year. Also, I feel I made some sort of emotional covenant with an ungodly source and this is truly the enemy to my soul right now….granted…yes…God is living and breathing in me and loving me….but some of this emotional duress is due to something other than God drawing me.  Yesterday, I dealt a bit with the enemy of my soul and felt a strong breaking through into my true self. I will tell you that whatever season of life you are in –  if you don’t deal with your emotions, ideas, feelings – they WILL eventually deal with you. So all of that is pretty much why I’m still stuck in a parking lot.

Superwoman Cape

I’ve experienced some loss –  our sister moved to heaven in January of this year. Prior to that we had some friends who decided they were no longer our friends. My sister’s husband also, suddenly passed. We had strong changes as well as several deaths in our church family. In addition, we have had sicknesses in our immediate community. I’ve been taking in one thing at a time like a good soldier 🙂 with rare discussions with myself on how I am handling these shifts and transitions. I laid down my superwoman cape many years ago or so I thought…apparently, I had a spare cape in my closet that I slipped on….and have just been going going going…. Though I’m a spirit being, my human being part of me needs ministry and loving and stopping and considering this thing called life. So, that’s kind of what I sense The Lord doing in me in this particular season. Though it feels very odd and out of sorts to be stuck in a parking lot, I’m cognizant that I have a good Father Who cares for me and is drawing me into His lap. We are reasoning together in this season – Him doing the talking and me doing the weeping – I mean listening. HE is building me back up and encouraging me and strengthening me. Admittedly, I’m thankful HIS love for me is so deep and wide. Though you may not be stuck in a parking lot, I want to encourage you to take deep breaths, look around, breathe again and give yourself a great big HUG from God. HE is never too busy to love on us whether we are on the road or still stuck in a parking lot.

BE BRAVE

Therefore, it may be time for you to prepare yourself to be BRAVE and #bravetobraver. Get ready to GIRD yourself up with BOLDNESS and realize you CANNOT live in a parking lot. So, have some RESPECT for yourself and get the plan of ACTION you are going to take when it is time to take it. Know it will prove to be a VICTORIOUS move over your past and very ENCOURAGING! God loves you and HE is for you and HE knows who we are and where we are and HE is not in a hurry to be in a hurry. So, I declare over you and me a release from false obligations, false responsibilities and false relationships so that you and I can BE STILL AND KNOW how good HE is and how for us HE really is….

PS………I’m not living here and you should not either – I’m already planning my escape and writing my next word –  LEAVING THE PARKING LOT……..LOL – how about you?

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d