Not the Norm

Motivated Monday-Okay so not only am I not the norm but this commentary is not the norm.

My norm is that everything is okay or going to be okay and that the devil is a liar and that you can pursue Him and come out on top.

Today is not the norm.

I’m in pain, not feeling well, uncomfortable, dizzy and confused. There I said it…it’s almost like a cussword when you say to a Christian that you are confused…yet sometimes it is what comes. My question to myself is how long do I give myself permission to live here?

Someone I know seems to hate my optimism. Hates my viewpoint of life. Hates that no matter what, for the most part, I remain at peace. Angry that I don’t shed the same tears, yell at the same militants, lose my composure. They think if I don’t express myself the way they express themselves then I must be not feeling anything….yet ..they don’t know or maybe don’t care to know that if I lose my peace – I’ll go to pieces…

Would they like me more if I lost my mind? Yelled. Threatened others. Stomped to make a point. Agreed with their anger to such a point that I got so angry that I threw glasses or plates or ran my car off a cliff? Hurt myself? Hurt others? 

I won’t return to who I used to be.

So how long will I remain I this state of being? About a second.

Ain’t got NO TIME to fall to pieces. I’m realigning with peace so that I can walk with the God of peace and make decisions from peace instead of pieces of distress. 

Love, d